Mel Botes – Judas lyrics

Well it started the same way as yesterday had ended
and you know she woke me at eight o'clock this morning
and told me that she's leaving
she said I got to put a smile on this sour face of mine
'cause the new sun is laughing out there
and I wonder
whether I should be here
Now my friend gave me this book
and you know that I was reading
but the dust just gathered on the cover sheet
and the yellow fingered paper melted before my eyes
and I tried to tell her not to interfere
and wondered If I'm still wanted here

With a hand full of monkey reason I stumbled out the front door
and you know they pissed me off so badly last night
with their beer breath nicotine stained laughter
and I explained to them I ain't got no more answers
I told them I can take in no more
and it's cold in here
I'm about to freeze in here

Do you know how long have I been in here
and did you know in all this time I've been waiting
for my ship in the sky to take me home

Now I talked to Jesus one more time in this monastery
and I begged Him for forgiveness
I told Him I would never ever sin again
and I would play these songs forever
but you know that woman last night she was so amazing
she was telling me over and over again
blue boy, you should never have come here

Now I saw mama in this zenboat
I could swear that she was screaming
there was always something wrong along those paths
where you were dreaming
I thought she came down all the way down from hell
just to be my angel, and I asked her if she's for real
and she said baby you're not even in here

And yes and I walked the streets of Dublin
with a Judas hand in mine
and spat out words of anger in relics of a misfit childhood
and I tried to tell them it ain’t so bad in here
as long as you got somebody to hold onto
and all I ever wanted was to say that I'm in here