Big Cali – I Don't Know lyrics

You make me feel like a dead man with that look in your eyes
Looking like you're walking past my casket at my funeral
But its closed cause I am too grisly for public viewing
And with your imagination you picture my mangled body just so you can smile inside at my death's misery
I never intended any harm to you and I'm sure you know that
But when you've fucked up so bad hatred is understandable
You pierce right through me and you know all my weaknesses
That is what makes this war of words so menacing
It is very one sided as I sit with a look of blank disgust
What was I thinking? Right now all I hear are those adjectives you use to put me to shame
Everything you say is like a soft downpour on a misty night
But when you call me names, they clang out like thunder
Arrogant, psycho, weird, crazy, fucking asshole
The only thing I can muster is an "I'm sorry" every few minutes
The pause in between each apology makes my voice lose clarity with a choke of uncertainty
You ask if I really love you and those words echo through my brain
"I don't know" is the only honest thing I've ever said to you but my mistake negates any feelings I could have
As you walk away from me and cry, I reach out and grab your hand and kiss it one last time
You say you loved me and the tense that you use crushes me in two
I guess this emptiness inside without you is the undiscovered love I had for you